there's not much friends that are updating their blog now i guess, and that include me. tbh the only fun part about blogging is setting up the layout/template/design whatever you call it, re-edit the html/css/widgets etc. it's weird but i find that enjoyable. whereas posting a new blog post will just last for awhile, and that's it. probably no one read it anyway (i hope someone would)

so guess i'll just switch to tumblr. simplicity is what i like, don't need fancy shits anyway. simple blog post bout something which i can hardly say it out to anyone else; might work, idk. ask me for the new link if you're interested ^_^

Yes, everyone feel lonely sometimes. Sometimes i just need someone to talk to, because i'm someone who like to keep things to myself, but if there's someone who is willing to listen that'll be great, and i don't know where and how long until it reaches my limit..

is this a test or obstacle that we must face every time? it's really too much.. everything is collapsing upon me, it's unbearable

what you see might not be what it really seems; unexpected things happens

i really wish i didn't see it

perhaps only time will tell..

I'm back in Klang. Almost a month since last year. 3 weeks of "holidays", packed everything up in Cyberjaya and went back home, figured out it's more than I thought. Upon reaching my house, I realize there's nothing much decos hanging around my house; remembering that my granddad passed away not long ago. It's the first year we never celebrate together in our hometown. How I misses that place. A large empty parking space outside for us to sit down chit-chatting. Flowers, gardens, papayas that he planted. Lying down on the cold and chilling green floor. The kitchen.. the foods that granddad and grandma used to cook together, they sure is tasty.. especially the traditional 年糕 he make by his own, the aromas..

We're worry about grandma, she had to stay with uncle here now. She's wept everyday since the granddad left her, mumbling to her self, and she don't eat much as before.

Now it's just an old dusty abandoned wooden house. No one is living there. Guess I won't be coming back here again? I'll pay visit again someday, somehow I feel he is still there, perhaps.

Chinese New Year again, and every yearly's saving will be wasted here. Been shopping for new clothes and stuffs for the past 2 weeks. At least all the time-wasting and soreness is worthwhile. It's seriously hard to find sizes for skinny peoples, especially for items that you effing like. And guys clothing are way expensive than ladies. Well, doesn't matter anyway, if you like just buy it, else don't regret later. Wallet bleeding; and there's still graduation trip by the end of my last semester. And what about other expenses? ヽ（´ー｀）┌

Did you spot something different? It's zhihan by the way.


Spent savings, now saving.

2 years had passed since the last post i blogged here..

The older I grow, the faster the time has passed. Still remember when I was young, I always wanted to grow up into an adult, doing what adults would do. Yes, I've reached that point. But somehow the achievement is way too fast. I'm starting to miss those younger days; what we did, which by now it's almost impossible. As for the present, seeing everyone around me filled with sadness; friendship, relationship is what we're facing now. People just won't appreciate what they currently have, until they've lost everything. How miserable we are.

2011 ended; grief, sorrow, unhappiness, misery.. not to mention.
Whatever happens, life has to go on

sorry, i don't really write these stuffs. sometimes, i just need someone.. a listener. oh well, so i guess this might be a more suitable place eh?